A man asks… Why i am not able to be faithful in my relationships ?
The Child’s Dream
Dear child
please listen to our words
for we call you child
not with out meaning
You are a man yes
but in a child’s heart
and the heart
of this child wishes
to dream
to dream
of places
where no one gets hurt
where no lies are told
where no one is troubled
where no harm can be found
And this child
wishes to find
this world
as his reality
his home
his place
where he can run and hide
when all becomes
trouble
once again
Darling child
the trouble
you run from
and the dream
you seek
are birthed
from the same
seed
the dream
arrived
because of the winds
of the upheavals
as a wished for place
where that one
so very young
dreamed he could
hide
a safe place
to escape from
the very adult pressures
forced upon him
The trouble
created
by the infidelities
is the whirl wind
dust
of the pains
from long ago
that continue to
haunt
your tender heart
and convince him
he is not enough
for love
so he pushes
against it
whenever it comes close
yet he craves it so desperately
for maybe the dream lives there
maybe i will find the place
where i can relax and trust again
just maybe
But every time you get close
like a hot poker
you feel
the burn of love
telling you
you are not worthy
Dear child
you are the child
seeking a world
other than
what is and was yours
and although
this seeking
is all so normal
there is no where
it will take you
but in a circle
We hand you
a sword of love
to cut the binding
and to fall
into the utter anguish
you are carrying
for until
you fall
and can see the wound clearly
you will not be able to
stop the cycle
of the dreamer
who keeps seeking
the dream
yet not believing
he is worth it
Every time
you have cheated
or lied
has been a moment
of a lack of self belief
that you are
worthy of love
Having this clear and true
vision
in heart and mind
will set you free
from the cycle of
unfulfilled dreams
to discovering
a dream
that is not
of a boy
but a true inspiration
for a man
and a life
of self value
giving and most of all receiving love